Monday, May 19, 2008

blah Monday . . .


I am feeling stretched and stressed, not enjoying what I'm doing. It's a chore to sit down at my desk, working on yet another unintelligible text. I keep thinking that I'll find the right path, but it seems there are nothing but weeds and detritus in the way.

When I was much younger, I overheard two girls on the subway, talking in the way college girls do. "I don't care what I do," said one to the other, "as long as it's creative."

Well, I'm feeling like that, but I can't seem to break through this plastic wrap that seems to envelope me and cut off my air supply. What to do at this point, I don't know. I'm a bit beyond What Color Is Your Parachute, not that it was any help way back when to begin with. Ack.

19 comments:

Betty C. said...

Yikes! And yet you have the job so many of us dream of -- being a writer!

Just goes to show ya'...

tut-tut said...

Betty C.:

mostly just a copy editor . . . perhaps I need to kick start myself to do something more than that.

tt

stephanie s said...

sorry to hear of the blahs... i know how it can stifle.... i keep dreaming about getting things and that seems to have boosted me into the idea of the unknown...

is there something you are not doing that you really want to do but know it isn't the right time? because, maybe it is......

LeenaM said...

Now I suggested to you, that you start to organize something in a future between your work. You do 45 minutes work and then walk and plan something nice.
I am a little stressed, when I am thinking my summer and all those lovely visitors, they really are beloved, but I feel tired much easier
now, but they don`t realize that. Yes, I know, I should say it, but - - - there it is a big BUT.

I start organizing today, less blogging - more house holding :))

With best wishes
Leena

poppy fields said...

I know how you feel.

carolyn said...

I know exactly how you feel but you word it quite beautifully.

lettuce said...

i know too, a bit

(and not just because of the exam scripts, which are also frequently unintelligible texts...)

do you think you could make a change? because if its slightly possible, and its what you want, i'd say - go for it!

david mcmahon said...

Creativity is what propels me.

I came here from Merisi, whose work I really admire.

Chedwick University said...

Maybe a class would perk you up or set you in a new direction.

The Trustees


p.s. nice cat.

mouse (aka kimy) said...

ah, been there, done that!

big question is this an acute phenomena or a chronic one?

if the later, then you can take a break (vacation, retreat) and to see if the chronic cycle is broken and are back refreshed and energized and/or start planning new paths (knowing that things takes time)

okay advice is cheap and probably what you don't need - so some cyber hugs and calming thoughts also going out to tut-tut! xxx

citizen of the world said...

Weeds and detritus - kind of brings up a surf and turf image for me. Sorry you're having a blah experience. I have to say, though, that your cat loioks perfectly content.

stacie said...

Yep....
I have a creative job, but when the creativity isn't there, it sure does suck...stresses you out in a weird way...

Mouse said...

A copy-editor?
I've been looking into that as a 'possible path'...
Not good?

How about taking time in that other country/environment?

Often the grass is greener
More often a person just needs to re-adjust their focus

Perhaps?

Akelamalu said...

Hi there, thanks for dropping in to visit me and taking the time to comment.

Time for a change of direction? Why not give it a go! :)

d. chedwick said...

I like all of the comments here--I agree, and esp with Carolyn. Kimy asks a good questions gives good advice and

more cyber hugs from me.

Ex-Shammickite said...

I think you are aching for a change... so do it! It doesnt have to be drastic... just a teeny weeny change can make all the differnece!

Bob Dylan said...

Tut Tut, you may already be changing, waiting to burst out of that sheltered place--that plastic wrap cocoon.

Mountain Dweller said...

Hope you've broken through the plastic wrap by now and are feeling happier.

Sally Crawford from London said...

Copy-editing (and associated tasks) certainly pay the rent or whatever.

But copy-editing (and associated tasks) do not feed the soul.

I agree with little steps (unless you feel ready for a big one): move your desk over to a window at least so that you look out on that nice cat; that nice grass; those flowers.

Hugs,
Sally